MS for the win?

 Your test came back positive for MS. We need to discuss treatment options. It wasn’t that cold actually. You see, my provider is also someone I Call friend. We both cried as she said the words I knew she would say. I had the results in my patient portal, but once she said them, THEY BECAME REAL. I have the disease process that I have seen the worst parts of for the last 16 years. It is ugly yall. But it doesn’t have to be. It is all in what you make it. In how you fight back to reclaim your life. Today, I am not much of a fighter. The fatigue I now understand is so much stronger than me. TODAY. Tomorrow is a fresh new day. Maybe tomorrow is the day I will be stronger. I am allowing myself until monday to mourn. Monday though. I am putting the boxing gloves on. Even if I only have enough strength to throw one punch. That is 1 more than I threw today. We can only hope to do a little more each day than we did the day before. I have the support system to speak positivity when I am stuck in the negative. I have no doubt they will help me put on the gloves when I think I cannot. They will help me fight this with modern medicine, nutrition, and exercise. I think large doses of positivity will hep also. It is not as bad as it could be. I am so blessed. There are many things in my corner. Many good things that are bigger than this new diagnosis. I Have so many prayers being said for me. My faith may be fractured, bit it will also be fixed. God always has a plan and will ultimately use this for his glory. I will not be defined by MS. MS will not take me down. At least not after Monday- because I need to process this grief and I will give myself Time to do that. 

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