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 First, thank you all for the support and prayers. I have finished the steroids. They helped. My migraines are still completely out of control. This may still be from med changes, it may be because I have had a great deal of external stress at work. Who knows. Monday I was lucky enough to have one of those visual disturbance migraines. At least that is familiar and not terrifying. Not being able to walk independently was terrifying.  I have decided and discussed with my provider that I will not take the generic again. I had another bottle of the name brand and I have stated it back. Hopefully my body will calm down now. The migraines, back pain, dizziness, weakness, fatigue. I am ready to feel better again.  We have also been busy and I am keeping up so that is good.  Kids had a dance at school Friday night. They had friends stay Saturday night. I took Katie-Nell shopping Sunday for her upcoming trip with KK to Dallas. She gets to fly on a plane. We are all going, bu...

 We are a few years in to this adventure that we never signed up for. Most days are good. Some days are hard. Some days I can do it all. Some days I can barely do anything at all. Every day I see people who struggle more than I. Each day I have a healthy dose of perspective to remind me how blessed I truly am.  July of 2020, I had 1 lesion. July of 2021 there were 5. I have held steady since then. I gained weight and lost hair. I grew hair and lost weight this year. Thank God for small victories. :) I have learned that summer is full of anxiety. Maybe because it is the anniversary of my diagnosis. Maybe because I am always convinced my scan will be worse. Most likely it is because heat makes me (and many other MS’ers) have crazy symptoms that convince you the disease is progressing. I keep waiting for the day that I am not scared of my own body. When ai can just KNOW that those weird symptoms are normal. I am better at it. I am better at not being hit with grief over my circum...